nearly

just now,i mean in the evening i nearly had an accident.. i driving alone to the town to withdraw some cash 'cause i need to pay something up.. then i just park the car off the road without turning it off and i walked inside the bank.. dahla ada mamat nie seriously rude to me,i didnt changed my outfit time nak keluar pergi bank nie,just plain t-shirt with my short on.. then this mamat keep staring at me like im naked.. sumpah macam nak korek biji mata dia keluar at time.. gila betul.. then dengan tak matikan enjin kereta,i keep looking at my brother's car.. takut gak,mana la tau kan..

then da siap ambil duit,nak balik da.. masuk dalam kereta,locked pintu.. mamat tu keep staring me sampai la saya da masuk dalam kereta pun.. memang immoral betul la.. then,dekat simpang tiga nak masuk kawasan rumah,suddenly i received a call.. dahla tengah drive secara illegal that time,adui hp pulak berbunyi.. then dengan sebelah tangan pegang stereng and my other hand sibuk selongkar my handbag cari hp.. adui mana nie?

then suddenly ntah macam mana,kena hon!! first time in my life driving secara illegal dapat hon.. memang shocked gila,sebab nearly nak cium kereta depan.. dahla cina,bawak bmw pulak tu.. dengan hp yang berbunyi lagi.. panik.. then berhenti kereta kat tepi,and keluar.. mana la tau saya da calarkan kereta cina tu,adui.. then tengok2 tak kena pun,just she asked me to drive more careful.. then minta maaf kat dia and also said thank you..

then masuk balik dalam kereta,try to calm down myself.. panic kot.. then cari hp yang asyik sibuk memekak dari tadi.. bila tengok2 ingatkan ada urgent call,rupa-rupanya unknown number.. memang nak kena sumpah la,012 9463356.. haha,sila kacau pulak dia nie ea..

nasib baik sampai rumah dengan selamatnya..



lucky,
amal ismail

song that i have been listening currently

ku.. khabarkan pada sang angin
cinta ku basah di tengah hujan
lemas di tengah lautan
dan ku.. khabarkan pada sang angin
hentikan pukulan ombak
agar cinta ku mampu berenang

chorus
bawa cinta ku ke sisir pantai
biar cinta ku ke daratan kembali
agar dapat mengejar cintanya
katakan padanya
bawa cintaku ke sisir pantai
biar cintaku ke daratan kembali
agar dapat mengejar cintanya
cintaku mahukan dia

khabar..khabar..khabarkan..2x

khabarkan pada sang bunga
cintaku hilang panduan
hilang arah hampir rebah
tak tahu ke mana berjalan
khabarkan pada sang mentari
terangkan jalannya empunya hati
agar cintaku sampai padanya

ulang chorus

angin khabarkan
cinta ini padanya
angin tolonglah
cintaku mahukan dia


song that i have been listening currently.. gila best siot.. its from luscious,khabarkan.. its jazz,well just guessing.. cari video lagu nie,tapi still havent found it yet..


enjoy,
amal ismail

sad plus happy

sad thing is,
i will never ever be back again with him like before.. i mean i still have feeling towards him in my heart,i'll move on.. so fariz,i think its time.. its our final goodbye then.. after all this while,the moment are priceless.. anyway,thanks for everything.. may you be happy with her,good bye!!

readers,i will no longer talked about fariz here.. forget about him..

happy thing is,
he got a new gf but does not mean i have to seek one.. not anymore.. let the love find me.. yea,for the first time is,let the love find me.. i will wait for it.. i dont want wasting my time anymore.. life must go on..

wondering the crazy world outside waiting for me,after no longer a protection hugging.. can i handle it?


crossing finger,
amal ismail

10 thing you shud know about me

its just for fun :)

first,
i love my family.. they are my ultimate power and an important part of my life.. i cant even imagine my life and days without them.. i hardly cant find anything that can go beyond them in me..

second,
im an impatient person and barely cant wait for others.. so dont keep me waiting for so damn long..

third,
friendship means a lot to me.. i appreciate all of my friend and i love them all.. i barely cant imagine life without presence of a person called friend..

fourth,
im a choosy person ever.. seriously.. but i am not fussy..

fifth,
i love reading so damn much.. i can read a thick book like 3 hours non-stop.. and i have a lot of book back home.. yeay~

sixth,
im allergic to those medicine.. panadol,pain killer,all those medicine stuff,i cant have them all.. and also im allergic to seafood and also the heat..

seventh,
im unique in my own way.. i love to eat cake,but i hate the ising.. but i dont like the plain cake.. i love fast food better than you can imagine.. i dont mind if i have to eat fast food the whole day..

eighth,
100 plus is my favourite beverenge.. super duper best :)

nineth,
im obssessed about chad michael murray ^_^

tenth,
i am hyperactive and a very talkative person.. i can jump here and there the whole day,i can laugh happily and talk like 24/7

yours,
amal ismail

what hurt the most

Lyrics | Rascal Flatts lyrics - What Hurts The Most lyrics

its hurt the most,
amal ismail

i am truly sorry

dear bestie,

sorry because keep you worried about me,again.. seriously,its like the last one,i swear.. maybe you wondering why is so hard for me to forget him? i dont even know the answer,silly isnt but i dont know.. you dont need reason on why you love someone.. you need to feel it,and appreciate it,like i never done it before..

why it is hard for me this time? maybe he is the one for me.. maybe i falling onto him so deeply and i cant even deny it when it happened.. not the same as before,when i get hurt,i can easily smile and back again after a few days.. but this time,it took me like weeks..

but this time,right now,i changed my mind.. maybe you right,i should keep trying to get him back.. at once,i've done what you asked me to do.. but what if he doesnt want me back? he is already got someone else? i keep thinking about that..

then,i have decided.. i'll move on.. this time its like seriously i will move on.. maybe he is not the one for me.. he is not my soul mate.. he is not my spouse.. it is ok,i really can accept it this time.. i have been living in tears all this week,now not anymore.. i promise it to you.. cross your finger for me..


im sorry,
amal ismail

cant stand it anymore

it have been 6 or more day i never talked about him.. but deep down inside me,im still missing him.. i miss him for God sake.. i need him to lighten up my days back.. need him like before,before someone else turned up.. i need him in my single breath.. i need him when im laugh.. i need him when i cry.. i need him to call me every morning saying,'baby good morning.. i love you'.. i need him to call me before i went to bed saying,'night sayang,i love you more.. sweet dream'.. i miss him.. i miss his sexy voice.. i miss calling him just to hear his laughing.. i miss to wake him up everyday.. i miss telling him that im off to class.. i miss telling him about crazy stuff i did.. i miss crying on the phone with him.. i miss his smile.. i need him back in life.. please give him back to me..

i need the old you back in life.. please.. i really need that back.. i cant stand this anymore.. im going insane now!! im thinking about you every single second.. i love you deeper and deeper every time i breathing.. please,back to me.. i need you..


begging,
amal ismail

once again

just now i had my breakfast at 2:55 pm with a glass of hot milo and 3 slice of choc bread.. my mum said,'another bread,again?'.. hehe.. gosh,i am too degil mummy ^_^



morning people,
amal ismail

what family means to me

today is like my tak larat day forever.. im gastric like hell today,its like im cannot moving to anywhere.. sumpah macam taknak ada perut je sekarang nie.. sakitnya.. and i went to the clinic,got 4 injection plus glucose and kena berleter.. untung kot siapa yang dapat jadi doktor,selalu dapat inject me.. hehe.. my mum did said,'lepas nie kita tak payah nak beli beras lagi,nak masak nasi.. kita beli roti je banyak-banyak buat stok kat rumah ok?'.. hehe,she is so cute saying that thing to me.. i know,lately i have been ignored about my meal,i didnt take meal in time,just eat when im really hungry.. how im missing him lately.. ignored the feeling~

but it is not the main point im writing this.. i would like to talk about my niece.. today dia accident.. well not really an accident 'cause takde orang langgar dia pun.. just she did fell off from the motorcycle.. dia baru balik from kelas mengaji with her brother and they went there by a scooter.. then entah macam mana diaorang gaduh tengah jalan and si abang nie suruh adik balik berjalan kaki.. tapi sebab takut si adik nie balik dan mengadu kat ibu diaorang,then dia terpaksa berpatah balik untuk ambil adik dia nie.. tapi belum sempat adik dia nie naik motor and nak duduk atas motor tu,abang da jalan dulu.. then yang si adik nie terjatuh la..

well,adik terluka jatuh terlentang and kening dia luka sikit.. well,she said so.. tapi tadi tengok luka macam kena seret je atas jalan.. well,she reminds me about an accident i used to have like 10 year ago.. i was injured on my elbow and had a small operation on it.. i still remember it till now.. and its still feel hurt till today.. since that day,i never ride a bike.. its like never.. used to remember that,once time my brother had to fetch me up from my tuition class and he was forgot that im not riding a bike.. then he had to turn around back to our house and changed the vehicle..

well,berbalik kat adik.. i feel hurt when i see or hear that my family gets hurt.. i feel like wanna cry when i see them cry.. i do feel bad just now when im seeing adik was crying.. i love my family.. i dont want to see them hurt.. and it will hurting me too..


i will always love my family,
amal ismail

The Sexuality of Capricorn December 22 - January 19

The Capricorn woman has sexuality that is geared to enhance living with action and self-assertion and is a hard worker. Sex and love are supremely important to the Capricorn woman yet she seems to want worldly recognition. Her sexual partner has a lot to deal with in satisfying the woman whose sign indicates single-minded determination. With her quest for world domination, however, the Capricorn woman would not like to bed a man and then not hear from him again. Her sexuality hedges upon being a dutiful sex partner but is cautious about getting into a real relationship. The Capricorn woman has what is called durable sex appeal and as she ages her sexual conquests gets better instead of waning. The Capricorn woman respects her man because of the respect that she has for her father. The Capricorn woman rarely identifies with her mother. The Capricorn is a shy woman and is reluctant to enter a relationship so her sexual experiences are not as expansive as the Sagittarius woman. The Capicorn woman because of her shyness, tends to underrate sex and not to put it on such a high plateau or importance. Although the Capricorn woman relates to her father, she has an innate fear of having a relationship with a man and is hesitant of sexual dependence of him. In this regards, the Capricorn woman does not relish in new and different sexual experiences and is usually passive about sex in general.

Capricorn,
amal ismail

football match

just now i watched the football match between malaysia and vietnam.. huhu.. we did actually won the game.. 1-0

go go go malaysia ^_^



malaysian,
amal ismail

art yang tak macam art pun

my heart,
amal ismail

me again

me again with my broken heart.. maybe you are tired reading this,but its my blog and hell suka ati la wey.. amik ko!!

stop thinking of him,will you amal?

for the guy out there,please back off from me.. im not ready to a new relationship again,for hell forever!!




broken into pieces,
amal ismail

killing me

someone please grab a knife and kill me..



kill me,
amal ismail

my bestie

"its a qte long time im not here, read ur en3..im a bit bsy..its lots of new entries i think..mybe ive already missed about 20++ i gues. got time.ttbe rasa nak singgah tdi..hmm..u did mention kat prvious entry..xyahla mintak maaf..aku xkisah pon..aku taw, its not tpu, just sme talks and words to avoid me from keep wrying bout u..aku pham..even aku pon slalu citer sal azman..what past is past..btul,tpi kita mnusia xkan mmpu hapuskan knangan.we r human being..has a soul with..im ok..im not mad to you at all..do share anything u want with me..dont wait until i asked u..i know u since we were in school..ok??bleive in me"

here is my bestie comment about my previous post.. well,its just not my attention to lie upon you,just i dont you to keep worried for me.. i dont want to burden on anyone.. enough with your problem,you cant thinking of my problem as well.. and i love you for that^_^

i do believe in you.. i have all my faith in you dear.. thank you is the best word that i can say to you.. you have been so kind to me,helping me through this moment.. seriously,if im all alone,im gonna be insane.. totally..

i love you bestie^_^


grief,
amal ismail

baby love ^_^

Lyrics | Nicole Scherzinger lyrics - Baby Love lyrics

i love nicole,
amal ismail

why

why everyone is so damn eager to celebrate my birthday? ala,i dont want to celebrate them this year.. please.. ignore my birthday you guys.. back off!!

ala,janganlah celebrate.. im in miserable mood,its not gonna fun anymore.. so please,dont do that 'cause i dont want to spoil the mood.. nanti semua orang akan tak happy kan..



dont want to celebrate birthday,
amal ismail

sape bosan?
sila angkat tangan ^_^




merapu,
amal ismail

birthday is coming to town

my bestie reminds me of my birthday last night.. he said,he had a huge surprise for me.. i juz officially dont want to celebrate my upcoming birthday,but he insisted too.. i wanna to celebrate birthday with him which is not going to happen.. hehe.. i know..

damn truth is,i dont want to celebrate it.. im scared,its turned out like last year.. with all the cake and flour on my face,horrible.. please dont do such thing this year.. i am a big girl ok^_^

birthday..
this time i dont feel the excitement anymore.. :(



my birthday,
amal ismail